And Then i Started running again….

Yes…. but this time with more enthusiasm, more patience and more effective way….

let’s discuss the way and approaches to the way i am approaching and i call this target 2010.

When inspiration really helps…. you??

Today i read DNA. As they claim that they are number one in the india’s economic capital and they are trying to be the same in india’s IT  hub. And being their one of the promoters and privileged card holder i am more of bothered than happy to read news paper DNA which is all because of the 300 bucks which i paid for the initial one year subscription of DNA. Whatever….. Today i am more of feeling thankful after reading the days news paper actually when there will be new news in the press at this time of .30AM.

This is all because i had my eyes on the headline which were really bold to take me there and compelled me to write… And the headlines were “A dad’s talk”  by india’s IT synonm as we say in terms of DBA(data base administrator… though i am really odd in that… but what say if my job title is that..) Mr Narayan Murthy. I am really not into the big picture of Mr Murthy and neither of his big deal of making india as one of the finest IT Giant. But i really inspired by the few lines he old during the interview and i felt like the finest interview from past few months  which i read. That not only inspired me but also made me compell to stroke my keys of imagination to the wordpress.

And then the story continues… as i went through another section of DNA which was more of my liking …. writers and blogs and then i found a new truth or better if i say a new fact that who was the father of blogging in india? And DNA replies none other than Amti Verma. The writer of india uncut.

Of course two consicutive electric shock no one can bear and specially if the electricity is of inspiration. And same happened to me ….

Narayan Murthy says that at every place you have a chance to add value to your system you are living in… and my mom says the moment you realize you have a responsibility to the happiness you got from us for sustaining them and to send that back to us… will be the day when you will add the value not to the system but also to the universe you are living  in.

Amit Varma says that he will be more happy if he will be know for being novelist than the blogger….. i must say my mom will reply back to me that i will be more happy if you will be know for the values you had when you were young accompnied the values which you had earned by your experiences, as there is no hard and fast or thin or fat line to distinguish among the name as long as you are holding the value.

Though i know i am becoming older and at this point of time changing the priorities and dreaming with the others whims and fancies will be difficult but even i am then i am not seeing any harm as long as i am true enough to the inspiration which is driving me for this. And otherwise i will always  have a chance to call Ekta Kapoor and then she will surely make a twist that everybody will accept. After all she is a drama queen.

At last but not the least… i hope that you will not change yoursself the way indian economy is changing… as then there will always be a chance of STANDBY. And in a life you really dont want any STANDBY.

My Story

बड़ी आधी अधूरी ख्वाहिशों में…
बड़े बेचैन से इन रास्तों में…
बहुत तनहा सफ़र की बोरियत में …
बड़े बेजान से इन काफिलों में…
मैं अपनी दुनिया ढूंढता हूँ…
मैं अपने रस्ते चल रह हूँ….
यही है बस मेरा सारा मुकद्दर….
यही है बस मेरी पहचान भी अब..
तुम्हें आना है मेरे साथ आओ…..तुम्हें जाना है मुझसे दूर जाओ |

मुझे शिकवा नहीं कोई किसी से…
मुझे हैरत नहीं है जिंदगी से…
मैं अपनी चालें चल रहा हूँ…
तुम अपनी चालें चलते जाओ…
यही है बस मेरा सारा मुकद्दर….
यही है बस मेरी पहचान भी अब..
तुम्हें आना है मेरे साथ आओ…..तुम्हें जाना है मुझसे दूर जाओ |

तुम्हारी याद में एक ख़त

आज कुछ अजीब सा हूँ मैं…बोझिल सा थका हुआ
शायद कुछ खो गया है मेरा…
या शायद जिंदगी नाराज है मुझसे…या शायद कोई और वजह है |

यूँ तो सब वैसा ही है पहले जैसा …. पर आदतें अजब सी लग रहीं हैं..
दिल तो अब भी वही है पर क्योँ लगता है जैसे..
ख्वाहिशें अजब से हैं…
हो सकता है वो याद आ रही है इसलिए…
या ये भी हो सकता है की मैं उस से दूर आ गया हूँ इसलिए…
जो भी हो कुछ वजह भी और कोई सिरा भी है |

शाम उसको देखो तो कुछ पहचाना सा लगा …
वो अनजाना सा चेहरा कुछ जाना पहचाना सा लगा..
वही हरकत …. वो शरारत… वो मासूम सा भोला सा मुखडा …
बिलकुल अपने आशियाने सा लगा |

सच में अगर ये मोहब्बत की शुरुआत है तो पडाव क्या होंगे…मंजिलें क्या होंगी…
और तब क्या होगा जब हम साथ होंगे…
एक दुसरे के साथ होंगे…. कुछ तो होगा….कुछ नया ….अजब सा …
जिसकी कोई वजह नहीं होगी..जो बस होगा…होने के लिए…
खो जाने के लिए…और शायद…
ये कहने के लिए…

” की दूर तो हैं तुमसे हम .. पर मोहब्बत पे रश्क रखना…..
गर जमाना खिलाफत में है .. जमाने से शर्त रखना..
इश्क गर है खुदा तो खुदा संभालेगा…
बस जरा ये करना.. कि हौसले बुलंद रखना… “

Stories that can’t be writtten….

When i started writing the blog … this was probably in my mind that, i got something where i can pour upon, my thought’s, my imagination, my creativity everything. But slowly slowly i realized that even the very thought of writing here was a false imagination… Because what you write is what you experience and majorly … what you experience is something which is somehow related with you. And you can not make self nude in front of the whole world as that will not be more than a masalla site for rest of the surfers….

So the first question which strikes me is …why we have the blogger sort of thing … why we only talk about the social things through why the blog which amitabh, sahrukh or some celebrities wrotes get the maximum hits even though people knows the truth about them that they are as real as the heroism itself. So referencing the first paragraph .. i personally believe that either a writer should be creative enough to put the truth in a spicy way of false presentation .. or he shouldn’t call himself a writer.

I know that the essence of this post is nothing as the output which i will reflect in my writings or somewhere else will be negligible… though i want to make a situation when you really wanted to speak out to the world … when you really want to put your thoughts to the world in a manner you really want…. then how should you put that? And this is not only about putting the right things or a real one .. but it is about the flavour of experience you are putting into that so that people who will taste it will feel the same.

Just expecting the same in future… Good luck

2009 Year of Perfection for Me and for IBM

Perfection = Perfect + Action

Once we start realizing that what does perfection really meant to us .. a lot of things come to us one by one like the bombordment of thought and at that very moment we lost the perfection of defining it. So this is something which is cluelesly a way to live in a continous path of betterment. May be the thing is which perfect for a particular time period is just ok for another time frame. So one thing which clearly sounded is “When you aim for perfection, you discover it’s a moving target.” And so as you have to move accordingly with the same relative pace which it requires. And believe me when we start thinking about perfction is the definite moment when we realized it that we are not perfect at all and then we develop some confidence to chase it, to find it.  There are nothing perfecct  in this world living or nonliving, only perfect intentions are running which motivates us to achieve this. And perfection is achieved, not when there is nothing more to add, but when there is nothing left to take away.

The very fact that everything is changing is a sign that we all strive for perfection, knowingly or unknowingly. Realizing ourselves is perfection. Perfection is when everything is in its place and correct and seeking for perfection is a beautiful journey.

The New Year Resolution….

This post could be awarded as a senseless one when you think that after ten days of a new year why the post came into existence…much like the whirlling going on “Satyam” issue a thought came in mind why not begin with a new  resoulution so that we will not commit a mistake as “Ramlingam Raju ” has committed.

Though if i tell the truth every year i had some reasons to start up with some of the new resolutions and quite a few reasons for breaking them just after a couple of days. Unprofessinal but true. Committing a committment is easy but fullfilling them is tough.

If we take a look arroud fealing ourself as a professionl then only one thing come up with the brightest way and that is fear. You talk about share market, you think about IT Industry, you have a look on political scenerio, you discuss about the global business .. anything and everthing is so much nasty that making a resolution is like going for a revolution. When the future is with question marks.. when your plans are in the analysis phase … when the scenerio is like a nightmare…..  then what could be our new year resolution.

Elder and grown up used to say that in the situation like this when nothing is clear one thing should be clear and that is your mind of not getting worried.. not getting tensioned…. not getting illousionist and moreover anything it should not be getting blocked. Then only you can live the year over year with n numbers of new years and resolutions.

My Life’s Wanna be….

I hurt him … and then i started writing… I hurt another him and then i thought of writing.. i quarreled many of him and then emotions and intellects started pinching me to write and this way the post came up.

The Question and central idea behind every above thing was common and that was “why we make the majority of followers why we are not the one who made up  and run the world.. the big question mark”? I know i am sounding more like a topic of philosophy and a bit of “Paulo Coleho” style.. of arguing but i cant’s help it as this is the only way to start up and to make myself relaxed.

I know i haven’t achieved anything remarkable in past 25 years and…. so as many of us. But is it mean that i can’t have the hope of doing that remarkable thing someday…

I know that i am no where good than the average Indian people but is it means that i can’t upgrade my self.

One more thing which i know and  i certainly believe is “change is a process which may take a long interval of time to show the effect but that happen for sure”. And that’s why i feel that i am fighting …arguing and sometimes criticizing and being criticized.

Lets talk about it in a more explanatory way….

In childhood everyone has an abstract thought of becoming someone in the life, having a worth living lifestyle and motto. Sooner we became older that abstract thing diverges in two ways. In first way which the majority follows is that … we are now having the illusionist view of our destiny and goal which is more or less unclear and ambiguous. While in other case it becomes more concrete and straightforward.

Now the big why ???????????

Reason is simple though the process is tough ..In the first case we are concerned with the thought of balanced and average life which is secure, less risky and ok type, though we never dream’t for this but still that holds good as we have a don’t mind attitude with us ever time we felt bad about our life.

In the second case we are the one who are selfish …self concerned and …. having a critical and analytical approach towards life.. these people are emotional though they know the technicality of it. These people are risk oriented though they knew the magic of taking risk.. though they love following the known path ..still they love being explorer.And many more.

Yes i am the one who belongs to the first category … yes i am the one who dream’t for the second category as every other do.. yes i am the one who indirectly criticized others for the way they live and also the vice-verse.

So what next… should i read “The monk who sold his Ferrari” or should i read the international best seller “The Alchemist”. Or “The Kite Runner” will help me. I personally believe that nothing will do the favor neither to you.. nor to anyone of those including me who belongs to the first category as the book may be written by the people who belongs to the first or second category but is no where a classic way of transforming yourself.

And thus the final conclusion which i am getting is that “Life may have some sortcuts… some recipes but someone’s life wanna be can not be copied .. can not be mapped with it’s previous theories”.

Life is all about analysis…or what?

After giving three, four months of my life to the much awaited corporate and business oriented people i come to know that life’s definition which i read in the very beginning of my life still holds good, that is “Life is all about experiencing it…living it and reflecting it.” Though i still believe that there are many points where your interference with the life becomes effective and can add value to it but more over anything this is your way of perception which deals with you and mobilize you to live, respond and run.

“Dostana” reflects the same. The compromises we makes during the initial phase becomes the compulsions at the later stage. And that changes your destiny. So is that mean that we should n,t compromise. No! not exactly, compromises are good if they are not in the same line where your priorities are lying, where your growth is lying and where your values are nurturing. May be it is good for short term benefit but for a longer run you are going to be at a losers end for sure.

तुम्हारी याद में एक ख़त

आज कुछ अजीब सा हूँ मैं…बोझिल सा थका हुआ
शायद कुछ खो गया है मेरा…
या शायद जींदगी नाराज है मुझसे…या शायद कोई और वजह है |

यूँ तो सब वैसा ही है पहले जैसा …. पर आदतें अजब सी लग रहीं हैं..
दिल तो अब भी वही है पर क्योँ लगता है जैसे..
ख्वाहिशें अजब से हैं…
हो सकता है वो याद आ रही है इसलिए…
या ये भी हो सकता है की मैं उस से दूर आ गया हूँ इसलिए…
जो भी हो कुछ वजह भी और कोई सिरा भी है  |

शाम उसको देखो तो कुछ पहचाना सा लगा …
वो अनजाना सा चेहरा कुछ जाना पहचाना सा लगा..
वही हरकत …. वो शरारत… वो मासूम सा भोला सा मुखडा …
बिलकुल अपने आशियाने सा लगा |
सच में अगर ये मोहब्बत की शुरुआत है तो पडाव क्या होंगे…मंजिलें क्या होंगी…
और तब क्या होगा जब हम साथ होंगे…
एक दुसरे के साथ होंगे…. कुछ तो होगा….कुछ नया ….अजब सा …
जिसकी कोई वजह नहीं होगी..जो बस होगा…होने के लिए…
खो जाने के लिए…और शायद…
ये कहने के लिए…
” की दूर तो हैं तुमसे हम .. पर मोहब्बत पे रश्क रखना…..
गर जमाना खिलाफत में है .. जमाने से शर्त रखना..
इश्क गर है खुदा तो खुदा संभालेगा…
बस जरा ये करना.. कि हौसले बुलंद रखना… “